Monday, December 3, 2012

My 1st little miracle turns 8!

Can't believe that in 13 days my preemie little miracle.. will turn 8. ( tears of course)... what a devastating year... being told I would never have children... just newlywed and anxious to start a family...what a kick in the gut.. when there was something wrong with me... I wouldn't be able to have children.. the look in our eyes... but there was hope.. Dr Gustavo Gonell went out of his way to help us achieve our dream... through his knowledge experience and proactive instincts... we were able to conceive a miracle... a little boy.. what a joy.... we couldn't believe it... on Dec 16th 2004 I was all lazy and didn't want to go to my 34 week wellness appointment.. urged by my mother to go.. I am grateful to God I did go... something was terribly wrong.. thanks to my amazing Dr he jumped right into action.. we were frozen.. scared to death.. and praying for the best.. at 1PM on the dot.. not a minute later.. Dr Gonell yelled " he is here.. a little boy".... I heard a weak cry.. kissed him for a brief second.. and off he was to the NICU... 4 pounds and a half... of pure beauty.. joy... LIFE... I was given the gift of being a mother... the next day to my surprise the Dr went into my room with this tiny bundle in his arms... placed it on mine.. .. wow.... love at first site.. what a true miracle you are Erick... You remind me every day that God DOES exist.. that miracles DO happen... I cannot imagine my life without you... what a sweet noble little boy you have become... I love you to infinity and back.. I hope you grow to be the kind, noble and wonderful person you already are today! 17 more days.. God bless you my son!!!! I LOVE YOU!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

My 2nd little miracle turns 1!!!!!

Its all so surreal... on this day last year the anxiety was KILLING me.. 4 days away from finally meeting my little angel after 6 yrs of a rough and heartbreaking journey through infertility and many miscarriages. Today 4 days from now my 2nd little miracle will turn 1... ONE... It's just surreal. All I have to say is Im grateful to God for the angels in the form of friends he sent me... to pick me up when I just couldn't take the pain anymore... to give me a loving husband who was strong for me when my world crumbled beneath me.. time after time.. hearing the " Im sorry your baby has no heartbeat".. and the horrible letdown when all treatments failed. Yet God did what doctors couldn't even with their fancy technology.... GOD ... God gave me my baby girl! When I gave up on what the medicine world had to offer .. God gave me my baby when I least thought it would happen! Thank you my Lord... Thank you my friends.. for being part of this joyous ending to a heartbreaking wait. 4 more days..... it's been the most AMAZING MOST WONDERFUL YEAR OF MY LIFE!

She is truly my healing baby... the scars will always remain.. but the pain heals as I see her grow.. I will never forget... this made me stronger and gave me a chance to see a world thats many women go through.. infertility and pregnancy loss.... Im here for my friends still fighting the fight.. the pain is horrible.. the wait is even worse... but when it happens.. I cannot begin to describe how WORTH it it totally is!!!

Phil 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”